May 19, 2017 § Leave a comment
People look at you and seek for change. I have a radical life. One that doesn’t necessary stand out in the crowd but get buried in the tow. One that gets called out because of the odds. One that makes people stop and wonder what’s the matter.
I have speak my mind and soul quite fearlessly. Sometimes the setbacks are getting pushed down by authorities or rules. Laws that we set ourselves up for protection and security but limit us from being free or human. It’s odd that those phrases being human and human being don’t exactly coincide. That we mortal souls have to be human and meet our reflections. Most of us go by with an identity, attaching ourselves with events or roles we set ourselves to. Most of us were told to love ourselves before we can love others but little did we realise that by forming this identity and attachments, all present moments are lost.
The past weeks have been tough because I was lost in the moments. Drown in forming identities, restructuring roles and anticipating a future. We were promised expectations that failed to execute; we were executing tasks that failed to meet expectations. I stood in the line of understanding both sides. We do our best to bridge the gaps and form a wholesome environment. We do our best and that sometimes means for others to look at us for change.
I’ve come so clear to an agnotology. An induced doubt or denial for the larger mass leaving one uncertain. While some climb the leadership board and hail power to control the thoughts of others for their own benefits. We are all inherently self-centred, whether we think it’s for the greater good or not, there is always a pleasurable feeling when we sense a certain joy in others. While selfishness can be deemed as negative, there is much positivity in this circumstances. But where do we draw the line between self and others?
Reading about love languages, being in the moment, meditating and searching for answers, I’ve come to realised that I’ve set myself up for this moment. Being in this situation is precisely where I ought to be because there are changes to be made. Beyond knowledge, compassion and altruism, there lies nothing but thyself.
And a new ode favourite to bid farewell